He leads me.

I am the mother of two kids, and wife of one, yeah the words sound crazy but I wrote it for fun.
That’s not my story in all, I am a doctor by profession, poet by my heart, and further detail, I was the college star.
I was a simple girl, with a big pimple with specks adding the cherry on top, but these things won’t define me innocent, I was the devil in all.
I was enjoying my life’s rollercoaster ride, accidentally met a stupid, idiot guy, stupid since he fall for me though I just gave it a try. 

His stupidity became contagious, I ran out of my pace, this bird loved his cage, he gave me my freedom I gave him his space.
Then that crucial time came when marriage feathers were flying in air, he took one gave it to me, “ please be my wife, dear.”
I said yes, families got convinced, the story of acceptance was big which I made it short, buddy I like to write but not a lot.
So in short, our marriage date was decided, everybody was excited and I took a break for a month, to plan my life because till now I was just my fathers Princess but further ill be mine idiots wife.
Things gonna be change, my life has to be arranged, the customs, traditions should be accepted it’s always easy to force others to understand us then to just stand for others.
I learned how to cook, how to feed the family, I always knew how to earn but I learned how to win the family.
I was pampered stubborn girl, but learned to be disciplined, selfless woman, it was never been asked by my in-laws, but taught by my mother since it’s easy to be shouting bird then to be humble.
The wedding day came, my face was covered with ghunghat, Few of the people objected, “ in this generation such a old school?”, but me, hardly caring about others word, i felt innocent first time in my life, it was my moment, and enjoying it was my right.
Then I was been asked to touch his feet and while touching I gave him a big hit, he reacted with a big smile, he knew though I am acting polite, there is a devil inside.
We started our seven rounds around the fire with those promises, but I added mine ,in my mind from my side.
- I’ll be the strength of my Mr. Spine
- I’ll take care of his family and his friends.
- When his friends fails to be with him while playing PUBG, I’ll join though I even don’t know what’s the definition, I’ll be their.
- I’ll massage his head when he feel sick and give him such a kid who’ll make him sick.
Many more such promises we’re added by me, but don’t think I am that good, even I added few promises from his side which I told him at our first night. 

I cleared before I am devil inside..
- He will kiss my forehead every night and day till our last breath, and he will full fill my every dream like it’s his life's wish.
- He have to cry when I’ll be leaving for my parents house, even for a day ,
- He will tell me how much he loves me, though he would be lying in the beautiful way.
Jokes apart, I made a promise which was essential, he will be my ego and I’ll be his manhood, he will handle me with respect and I’ll handle him with royalty. I promised, everyday we will fight for each other even when we are fighting with each other, everyday we will write our love story with different rainbow color.
On our first night when I told him about my special vows, he laughed out loud, “ oh I got my Monica Geller some how.”
No, no, no I though my idiot is a stud, but he is Chandler
I thought he knows everything about love , but he is just a beginner.
Anyway our love story took it pace, we were been gifted with twins kids, I took a leave from my job, not because it was asked .
Since now I was been promoted in my life’s stage, first I was daughter, then doctor, then wife and daughter in law, but now I am mother.
The one who creates a future, so I am enjoying my job with my two little toddlers, and spending money of my husband in the parlor.
On serious note, it’s sometime the woman’s wish to be what she want, when to earn money and when to run family, it’s her empire it’s her right, though the man is king still he is protected by his wife, play the game of chess if you think otherwise. sometimes fulfilling the dreams of others makes us happy, and living a life of homemaker is flashy.
So he leads me in my life, not because he wished to, but because being his shadow was my dream, and he protected me from every obstacles like Arthur the king.!!

Birthday..

It’s his birthday, what's to buy?
I declared to give wallet a try.
He is the one for my life, I wished to give him a love surprise.
I analyzed every shop of  city, found nothing, felt pitty.
Didn't matched anything like his old, one who's body is black and borders are gold.
So accepting  the scenario and my mood swing, I decided to write him a letter enveloped with a metal ring.
I drape my feelings with pen on paper in birthday cum love letter.
“ Hey birthday boy.”
And I tore the page.
“Hey Mr. Spine.” yeah that suits better.
“Hey Mr. Spine it’s a day world got one of the milestones to conquer, to compete.
I know you hate to have a gift yet I wish to give one, so this letter is my gift which will stay with you in dark nights and bright sun.
It will stay with you, when I’ll be set in stone, it will stay with you when you'll be all alone.
It will stay with you when you'll be a hungry wolf, it will stay with you when you'll lose your cool.
It will stay with you when smile defines your life, it will stay with you when your tears are question to my life,
It will stay with you when you'll be on cloud nine, it will stay with you when you'll be doubtful of life.
I aspire you to shine like Sirius, fly like Phoenix, and dwell like kid,
You are just the perfect thing God ever did.
You are my first rain, my first snow, my first dance, my first glow.
You are the calmness to my Hitler mind, you my last train, my last love ride.
You are the reason I deny to hit the bucket,
And for this Rapunzel you are her fairy cottage.
I know you are my King Arthur, will pull out the Excalibur of opulence from the hardship stone,
So I crave to confess before the time gone.
You are my perfect piece of advice, my sunset, my sunrise.
Never desire to bind you with a quick fix,
though carve to be thy side in times of risk.
So, with this letter of love I gift you a metal ring of trust, the one represents me, a blackish aura in your bright gleam.
I am not a diamond ring, I am Talisman preventing bad things.
Allow me to shield you whole my life, save my blue star from bad site.
So with this letter, a metal ring and our favourite tea, I confess all I have for you,
     
                                           Yours,
                                          Fangirl,
                              One who loves you...💙

Loves fight.

"How much do you love him?" a question asked.
"Enough to sit in front of his family and talk about our relationship," I said it fast.
We both know each other for a year now and decided to give this relationship name somehow.
So we planned a day when we have less risk of beatings and asked our parents lets go out for eating.
We took our parents out, respectively informed them about our love story, with a suggestion, hey people we are in public so please don't shout.
My parents asked me tons of questions, how we met with the correct location what happened between us, followed by a big lecture session, the scenario was no different at his place, what I was facing the same conditions he had faced.
By begging and requesting with teary eyes, our parents approved our plea and gave us time.
So our relatives were been called, our love story was informed,
We both were ready to face questionable eyes, we both were ready to face this crucial fight.
Considering Wednesday lucky, the meeting was organized, I asked him, we both will have a green dress code and welcome our new life, he added
"I have fallen in love with insane, even at this time you want to play a dress code game?"
Anyway, he did what I asked him, yes he was the man of my dreams.
So, I was sitting in front of his family and he has been encountered by mine, I was been asked, "how are you" with head down I said,
"I am fine."
Then a chain of questions was been asked, what I do, where do I live, what I think about family and kids and do I believe in ritual fasts?
I never thought loving him would bring me to such a big test and partially I was cursing the day we met.
Jokes apart, I gave answers with full confidence and didn't let them know about my inner volcano eruption.
Even he faced few of such questions he hated alot, when these questions I use to ask.
After an hour our interview was over, both the families sat in one big hall and to both of our surprise the priests were been called, we both were asked to sit outside, by the time our future they will decide.
These priests calculated our moons and stars and they will let them know how this relationship will work and will go how far.
We both were sitting outside, and first time silence took its place in our love life.
We trusted our love and the God above, but we were tired of the war so we just pleaded, pleaded and pleaded.
I know the lines weren't in rhythm, but so was our life out of track, out of pace and searching for it's faith.
We both were feared with what would happen next, will we have to be strangers again?
After an hour we both were called, we held each others hand with a big question, " how far?"
We sat in front of our families with those questionable eyes, we were waiting for the result, it was our love whose destiny was decided by others.
So I was asked what's my favorite flower? seriously at this time of hour?
Still, politely I said, "lavender"
"Ohh, that looks good at the mandap."
The word 'mandap' changed our world, we cried like a small toddler.
I hugged him tight having no fear, yess, yess, yesss he is mine and the verdict was clear.
Families aren't bad, just situations are, we have to fight and win this love war.
Life may show difficulties a lot, we just have to be highly positive even in the darkest cloud.

Our destiny

“Take the blessing from the Bride and Groom side, I now pronounce you both husband and wife.”
I was at my mandap with my souls goal, the one who would in my future gonna play a big role,
He would be my husband, father of my kids, and now I am tied to his destiny with a quick fix.
Marrying him was like a dream come true, and I was lavishing myself as a new Cinderella, in case nobody knew.
We both know each other from a year now, I still remember the day we met how.
It was coffee shop, we met each other, it wasn’t the beautiful incident but the accidental weather.
We fought the day we met, and the fight was so perfect, that God granted a wish that we gonna fight with each other for the life rest.
I know it was a rollercoaster ride to have him in my life, I know the battle I fought which was nearly equal to third world war.
I tell you these inter caste marriages are not so easy, you have to fight everyday like brave Chatrpati Shivaji.
I still remember my prayers and preaches, and crying as loudly as it reaches, to convince that God, listen “ I’ll not leave, he is mine and you have to give.”
I still remember, when I was about to lose my faith but that God, that bluff master played his real game.
My man came, bowing on his knees and asked my hand for his life thee.
And than that Harry Potters wand played it’s game, and everything miraculously happened like the Voldemort's game end.
Our families got convinced, our wedding date was decided, I’ll be his wife the verdict added.
Today standing in this place, holding his hands, promising to spoil each other for our rest of life,  I said, “I do” yes ill be your wife my life.
It was destiny, it was faith it wasn’t the accident ‘jab we met', we were meant to be together forever, but God didn’t wanted our love story to be boring like present weather.
So he placed hurdles and obstacles which were essential, he made us to beg and we did since this love was credential, today holding his hands I am relived, he was, he is and he will be my destiny, we were meant to be,' I believed'.!!

ek waqt aata hai

Her insaan k jeevan main ek waqt aata hai, jab wo puri trh se thak jaata hai, 

Tu laut aayega phir bhi sahi, Tu nhi aayega phir bhi sahi. 

Tu wada nibhayega phir bhi sahi, Tu nhi nibhayega phir bhi sahi. 

Tu mjhe bhul jayega phir bhi sahi, Tu nhi bhul payega phir bhi sahi. 

Tu mera  hojayega phir bhi sahi, Tu kissi ka banjayega phir bhi sahi. 

Tu dard dega phir bhi sahi, Tu malham lagayega phir bhi sahi. 

Her insaan k jeevan main ek waqt aata hai, jab wo puri trh se thak jata hai. 

Us waqt ye kasme, ye waade, ye rasme, ye yaade, ye sapne, ye apne her cheez baimani lagti hai, tb khudi ki zindagi ek adhuri kahani lagti hai, 

Tu pehchan jayega phir bhi sahi, Tu anjaan banke muh chupayega phir bhi sahi. 

tu mera dard smjh payega phir bhi sahi, tu na samjhna chahega phir bhi sahi.

Her insaan k jeevan main ek waqt aata hai, jab wo puri trh se thak jaata hai . 

Ye tea, ye coffee, ye chocolate, ye toffee, ye raat bhar phone pe ungliya dabana aur roothane per video call pe manana, 

Yeh sb ek dusre k pyar main doob jaane ki nishani lagti hai, aur ye normal ladki k life main Barbie ki kahani lagti hai. 

Tu izhar krega phir bhi sahi, Tu sbkuch maan me rkhega phir bhi sahi. 

Hum ek dusre k hai iska aitbaar kr phir bhi sahi, Tu na kr phir bhi sahi. 

Her insaan k jeevan main ek waqt aata hai, jab wo puri trh se thak jaata hai.