Tuesday, October 13, 2020

I am tenacious and you are my one.

It’s the time when we fall apart,
You said lets break it, let’s give it a stop.
You said things will not work out, lets get separated,
You said  feelings will change by time, our tears will be evaporated.
You said live your life, never meet me again,
You said go home before it rains.
I heard what you said, straight through my heart,
You were standing too close, still apart.
You broke us, it was 5th December,
‘Wish’  the only word, I could ever remember.
I was happy , I was your 'Wish’,
I was happy, you being my first kiss.
4 in the morning, no text pops up,
Bitter truth of my life, too soon you give up.
I left my bed, ran to terrace to get some air,
Life was playing it’s favorite game which wasn’t fair.
It took 20 breaths of me to realize you are not in my life, it took 20 breaths of me to realize I lost my survival fight.
It took few months for me to realize that there are no green or yellow light, I am walking on the street with traffic tight.
I was been tried to brain washed by few of my friends, he wasn’t worthy, he just played the game. To my surprise they set me few dates, I accepted but never attended.
Their was something of you which never went, you tied me through a loyalty band.
It was been too easy if on that day you would have said,
“ Be someones life, be someone’s wife, have his wedding ring, may you get your Mr.Right.”
Even on that day you possessed me and protected me from other guy's , how can I betray you ,I am all yours for my life.
When I was tired of convincing you and fighting the world, I took a step back, serendipity moved forward.
I did everything, which declared me same, nobody ever knew, in me a bit was changed.
I decided to write our love story in every positive way, the one where we are together the one where we stay.
I laughed like a clown, I showcased my teeth, you were been protected as my beautiful scar somewhere  beneath.
I stopped sharing us with the world, the one which calls you bad flight, they think you are everything, just not my right.
I was been told, you would never return, but like before life changed again. You are standing in front of me with same love, you wish to share our good and our worst.
So before starting our life together, I wish to have a talk, before ridding in your bike, let’s have our long walk.
Don’t give me a promise that you would love me more than anyone in your life, you would never leave me again and prove me that you are my Mr.Right .
Don’t promise me those bizzar things of love song, honey that craze of mine is long gone.
I don’t want you to be tied to me with a quick fix, I want your freedom and your independence at zero risk.
So, I set you free with just one vow, you would never do anything which you don’t mean, you would never betray your thought of leaving me ,just because of our wedding ring.
It doesn’t mean, I would never accept you if you return, you know you have my special key, you have a right to destroy me.
But just In case, you know every time you come and go, apart from destroying me, you kill me slow.
I would never complain for this pain, just stay a bit longer before leaving again.
So, holding your hand, let me clear a thing I can’t give up on you, I can’t give up on us,
I would walk by your side in every life's run.
You know, I am tenacious and you are my one.

Wednesday, May 13, 2020

मैं बस तुम्हारी हु

सुनो मेरे पास आओ, सरहद पे जाने से पहले मैं सिर्फ तुम्हारी हु ये मुझे बताओ, 
फिर ये मुलाक़ात हो ना हो,  फिर हमारी ये रात हो ना हो |
जाते जाते मेरी कुछ अनकही बाते सुनते जाओ, हमारी कहानी को गुनगुनाते हुए जाओ, 
फिर ये बात हो ना हो,  फिर हमारी ये रात हो ना हो |
आओ,  मैं तुम्हे अपने हातो से कुछ निवाले खिलाती हु, 
तुमसे कितनी मोहब्बत है मुझे तुम्हे ये बताती हु,
फिर हम उस खिड़की के पास बैठेंगे,  जहा मैं तुम्हारी इंतज़ार मैं तारे गिनती हु, उनके अनकहे शब्दो को सुनती हु, तुम भी उन्हें देखते हो इसका सुकून देजाते है, मेरी आँखों मैं आस भर जाते है,
आओ तुम्हे वो टेबल दिखाती हु जहा माँ, पापा और मैं रोज खाना खाया करते है, हर निवाले को एक अटपटी सी घबराहट से उठाया करते है,
दरवाजे की खटखटाहट हो या फ़ोन की घंटी, हम कई दफा निवाला छोड़ उठजाया करते है|
तुम्हारी एक आवाज़ ही उस डर को दूर करदेती है, तुम तब भी मेरी हिम्मत बन जाया  करते हो जब हालात मुझे हारने पे मजबूर करदेती है |
आओ तुम्हे तुम्हारे बच्चो की बाते बताती हु, क्या सोचते है तुम्हारे बारे मैं ये सुनाती हु, 
तुम्हारे नाम पे कुछ अलग ही इतरा ते है, अपनी बातो से मुझमे भी अलग सा घमंड भरजाते है, 
मैं उनके साथ रहती हु, फिर भी तुम ज्यादा प्यारे हो, 
तुम उनकी ज़िन्दगी के एक ब्रम्ह तारे हो|
आगे चलते है, एक बात बोलू,
जब कभी कुछ अनचाहा सुन के घबराती हु, 
खुद को उसदिन बहुत खूबसूरत सजाती हु, 
मैंने कहा था, खुद का ख्याल रखूंगी, इसलिए हर रोज मुस्कुराती हु, मैं तुम्हारी हु, तुम्हारी होने का फर्ज़ निभाती हु|
तुम्हे तो चाह के भी मैं सिर्फ अपना नहीं कह सकती, 
सपने मैं भी तुम सिर्फ मेरे हो ये वादा नहीं ले सकती, 
तुम तो तब ही बटगए थे जब सीमा पे डट गए थे,
खेर ये तुम्हारी या मेरी नहीं हमारी लड़ाई है, 
तुम सरहद पे जंग लडो, मैंने यहा विजय पायी है, 
इस दुरी मैं भी साथ निभाएंगे, थोड़ा खुद जलेंगे थोड़ा दुनिया को जलाएंगे, 
सुनो मेरे पास आओ , थक गए हो थोड़ी देर सोजाओ,
कल का सूरज नई उम्मीद लाएगा, ज़िन्दगी मैं कई रंग भरजाएगा, तुम अपने सफर पे निकल जाओगे हम जल्द ही मिलेंगे इसका भरोसा देजाओगे|
चलो जाने से पहले मैं तुम्हे खुद मैं भरलेती हु,  सिर्फ तुम्हारी हु तुम्हे बतादेति हु |
हम अपनी कहानी को बस यूँही गुमनाम रहने देंगे, तुम्हारे फर्ज़ के चादर मैं उसे प्यार से ढक देंगे,
दुनिया बस तुम्हारी वीरता गायेगी, और ये "तुम्हारी" उस घमंड मैं मुस्कुराएगी|
इस रात को यादगार करते है, मैं बस तुम्हारी हु इस बात की हामी भरते है, 
फिर ये बात हो ना हो,
फिर हमारी प्यार की रात हो ना हो, 
फिर हमारी मुलाक़ात हो ना हो |
फिर तुमसे बात हो ना हो |

Friday, May 1, 2020

She's Phoenix

"What the hell you want to do?"
"What the hell you are?"
"What's the aim of your life madam?"
"Which zenith you wish to cross?"
"Do you know what's your life's path?"
"Or should I ask Madam do you know 2 ka table in maths?"
She was 5'3", slim not so beautiful girl, standing in front of few dignities who got the degree to judge.
The room was filled with their laugh's light,
She didn't respond anything but just acted polite.
After a while, she left the room quietly with her ashes left inside.
I hated her on that day, I hated her with every bit of my life.
That night I shouted her a lot, it was nearly equal to 4th world war,
I screamed her, she could have told them the reality, she could have declared them that she was right,
She could have at least defended herself in public, when no one was by her side.
She listened to every word of mine, she accepted my anger with a soothing smile.
"I know lady I could have defended myself and would have bravely won the fight, but could I ask you something, do their thinking really matters my life, and do they deserve my explanation otherwise.
Fighting with them would have made me ordinary, but Phoenix is the bird of my choice.
I am the one who can make my nest, even if you try to destroy it every time.
I had left my ashes there, to give the birth to the new, I can't be just that predictable I wish to be exceptional."
She calmed me with her words and showed me my reality, I am not just a body or face but a one who can't be replaced.
I am a woman who is born to be judged, the one who is least expected to do the best, and the one who always fails the expectations of the society by proving that she is not like the rest.
I am a mother who gives birth, sacrifices her happiness for others.
I am a one who evolves in those dark nights, which destroys the world I am not the ordinary one, but I am phenomenal.
From that day, society never bothered me, those people were just the trash, she was my hope she was my strength she taught me I am someone unwounded.
I am a desert woman who gifts luxury of time, I am the one who does things gracefully, though I am culprit in everyone's eye.
I am the one who cooks the food, I can earn money and run the family,
I am the woman with lots of courage I can fight the battles on the boundaries.
I am not only the one who wears prada and gucci and drives Ferrari, but also the one who covers her baby in her saree ,
I am the one who covers all the sorrows in my anchal and spread my little smile,
My flesh could excite your body, but try to love my inner spine, it would captivate your soul and would make you a Phoenix of different kind.

Saturday, November 30, 2019

ठीक हु मैं

आज बहुत दिनों बाद मेने अपनी किताबों की अलमारी की तरफ रुख किया,
  उस एक किताब की खोज मैं जो मुझे मेरे सवालों का हल दे सकती थी,  और मैं ढूंढने लगा उसे, तभी अचानक मेरी नजर अलमारी के नीचे खाने पे गई वो वहा रखी हुई थी |
मैंने उसे उठाया और उसके कई पन्नों को पलटाया, 
वो बोल पडी, “इतने दिनों बाद,  how come?”
मैं उसके पन्ने पलट रहा था, “ just searching solution to my problems.”
वो बड़ी मासूमियत से बोली,  “ तुम्हे इंटरनेट पे उसका जवाब नहीं मिला?”
मैं अपनी धुन मैं था,  “नहीं,  मेरे सवालों का हल तुममें कही है|”
वो मुझे उसके पन्ने पलटते हुए देख रही थी मानो कई दिनों बाद वो मुझसे गुफ़्तगू कर रही हो,  अचानक से मैं उछल पड़ा,  “ मिलगया जवाब |”
तो वो तुरंत बोली, “ अब कब मिलना है अगली बार?”
मैं चुप था और उसको बंद करके निकलने लगा,  तभी पता नहीं क्या दिल मैं आया, उसकी तरफ मुडा,  और जाके उसे खोला और वही उसके करीब बैठ गया|
वो मुझे देख रही थी,  पर चुप थी
फिर मैंने ही पूछ लिया,  “कैसी हो तुम?”
उसने कुछ नहीं कहा, शांत थी वो
“ठीक तो हो तुम?” मैंने दोबारा मैं पूँछ लिया|
वो थोड़ी देर मुझे देखने लगी और बोली, “हा ठीक हु,  अगर इस अलमारी की सजावट बनके रहना मेरी ठीक होने की निशानी है,  तो मैं ठीक हु|
ये जो धूल मिट्टी मुझमे के अक्षरों को धुंधला कर रही है, मेरे अस्तित्व मैं अंधेरा भर रही है,  और अगर ये ठीक है तो ठीक हु मैं|
अब तुम्हे अपने महंगे मोबाइल और लैपटॉप वाले दोस्तों के सामने मुझे हाथ मैं थामना पसंद नहीं है, तुम्हारी बाहो मैं समाना अब मेरे हक़ मैं नहीं है,  और अगर ये ठीक है तो ठीक हु मैं|
तुम्हारे इंतेज़ार मैं,  मैं धीरे-धीरे ख़तम होती जा रही हु,  जो मैं तुम्हे कहना चाहती थी पर कह नहीं पारहि हु,  और वो अनकही बाते अगर ठीक है,  तो ठीक हु मैं|
आज भी मैं तुम्हारे कलम की लिखावट का इंतज़ार करती हु,  तुम्हारा आज भी मेरे शब्दों पे निशान बनाना और अपनी तरह से उसे लिखना याद है मुझे,  अब जब उसके बारे मैं सोचती हु तो रो पडती हु,  और अगर एक किताब का रोना ठीक है तुम्हारे हिसाब से तो ठीक हु मैं|
मेरी ही कहानी तुम मुझमे ना लिख के एक मोबाइल मैं टाइप कर रहे हो,  मेरी बाते दुनिया को सुना रहे हो,  और मेरा  अस्तितत्व कही नहीं है,  पर अगर ये ठीक है तुम्हारे हिसाब से तो ठीक हु मैं |”
मैं चुप था और कुछ पानी जैसा मेरी आँखों से गिरा;  शायद वो शर्म के आंसू थे; उसके पन्ने का थोड़ा सा हिस्सा गिला होगया,  और वो बोल पडी,  “ अच्छा सुनो,  अगली बार आना तो कुछ ज्यादा सवाल लाना,  थोड़ा वक़्त मेरे साथ बिताना,  तब शायद मैं भी कह सकूँ,  ठीक हु मैं,  ठीक हु मैं|”
मैंने उसे बंद करदिया, अपनी गलतियों की कहानी और नहीं सुन सकता था,  उस रात मैं उसे पकड़ के सोया|
पर सच कह रही थी,  दुनिया के दिखवे मैं हम अपनी असलियत भूल जाते है,  जो हमसे प्यार करते है हम अकसर उनसे दूर जाते है|
दिखावा,  सुंदरता,  ऊंचाई कुछ इसकदर पसंद आने लगी है हमें,  की अब हम अक्सर अपनी गहराई और सच्चाई भूल जाते है|




Friday, November 29, 2019

मेरी हस्सी की शिकायते

एक दिन मेरी हसी ने मुझसे पूँछा, “ मैं तुम्हारा दिखावटी प्यार क्यों हु भला?”
मैंने कहा, “तुम्हे ऐसा क्यों लगता है ये बताओ?
तुम्हे तो मैं सारी उम्र चाहता हु, तुम्हे पाने की दुआ तो मैं हर रोज मांगता हु| तुम्हारे लिए तो कई जतन करता हु, तुम्हे सँभालने के सारे प्रयत्न करता हु|
तुम तो मेरी कमाई हो,  हा बात दूसरी है तुम बहुत कम आयी हो,
मेरी हर ख़ुशी की पहचान हो तुम, मेरी ज़िन्दगी का सबसे खास मेहमान हो तुम|
तुम्हे तो सब मानलिया, सबसे मिलवादिया, मेरे हर संघी, साथी के घर का रास्ता तुम्हे दिखादिया, फिर भी तुम खुद को खास नहीं समझती,  तुम खुद को मेरा प्यार नहीं समझती?”
मेरी हसी बोली, “तुम कहते हो की तुम मुझे सँभालने के प्रयत्न करते हो, तो फिर अपने अंधेरों मैं मुझे अकेला क्यों छोड़ देते हो?
तुम कहते हो तुम मझे अपने दोस्तों से मिलवाते हो, तो फिर खुदसे मिलवाने मैं इतना क्यों कतराते हो?
तुम मुझे हर बार प्यारा मेहमान क्यों बनाते हो?आखिर वो दिन कब आएगा जब तुम मुझे तुम्हारा अपना बताओगे?
क्यों तुम अपने अकेलेपन पण मैं मुझे नहीं रखते हो, क्यों तुम मुझसे बेवफाई करके उन आंसुओ से दोस्ती करते हो?
क्या मेरी वफ़ा तुम्हे दिखाई नही देती है, या उन आंसुओ की बाहे तुम्हे ज्यादा पसंद आती है?
वो रात कब आएगी, जब मेरी मुलाक़ात तुम्हारी रूह से होपायेगी?
कब समझोगे तुम, ये तकलीफ तुम्हे खोखला कर रही है, कब समझोगे तुम तुम्हारी ये तकलीफ मुझे भी दर्द से भर रही है|
सच बोल रही थी वो और मैं चुप था, ना मेरे पास कोई जवाब था उसकी बातो का, ना हल था उसकी शिकायतों का|
मुझे परेशान देख वो खुद ही बोल पडी,
“अब क्या मेरी शिकायतों की परेशानी उठाओगे?”
“अब क्या अपने दर्द का हिसेदार मुझे भी बनाओगे?”
सुनो, मत सोचो इतना, मैं तुम्हारी हसीं हु तुम्हारा इंतज़ार करुँगी, तुमसे मोहब्बत हैं मुझे, तुमसे ही प्यार करूंगी|
मैं वो नहीं जो चार पांच के पीछे भागुंगी,  मैं  वो हु जो तुम्हारे इंतज़ार मैं ज़िन्दगी काटूंगी,
तुम आओगे एक दिन, उस दर्द को छोड़कर, तब हम मिलेंगे, तुम खिलखिला के हस पड़ोगे, और मेरी आँखों से वो इंतज़ार के आख़री आंसू गिरेंगे,  हम जरूर मिलेंगे|
तुम ये मत समझना मैं तुम्हारे रूखे पण से डर जाऊंगी , तुम मुझे जानते नहीं हो, मैं तुम्हारे लिए तुमसे लड़ जाऊंगी|
चलो अब हम दोनों आराम करते है, तुम दर्द से मोहब्बत निभाओ, हम बस तुम्हारा इंतजार करते हैं|

Wednesday, November 20, 2019

Wo ek old school kitab thi

expresso k jamane main, wo masala chai ka swad hai,
Wo ek old school kitab hai.
bhagti dodhti duniya main ek khubsoorat therav hai,
Wo ek old school kitab hai,
Uski duniya bht choti, aur khwabo ki udan unchi, wo dikhawe ki roshni main ek asliyat ki chaw hai,
Wo ek old school kitab hai.
Wo koi paheli nhi, ek adhoora khwab hai,
Jamane ki sajawat main, wo sadgi ka bahav hai,
Wo old school kitab hai.

Tuesday, November 19, 2019

His dowry

Before starting let's have a short recap of our "against samaj" love story,
We met while having tea, somewhat like Aditya and Geet, though we met in a bus, yet he was silencer and I was chat- buster.
So as per Indian new trend, we fought against every rule, convinced our families that our love is beautiful, leading to trillions of arguments at last  they accepted our request, by the God's name they decided the wedding date.
So just a month is left for that big day, when I'll destroy his freedom, I'll be the Queen of his kingdom.
We ticked every clause of proving a desperate lovers, meeting daily, having tea and loving each other.
So we two birds were sitting in a café having our coffee when the weather was hazy.
“So, Mr.Spine.” I call him Mr.Spine, that’s a kind of romance I believe in.
“So Mr.Spine, what you would like to have in dowry?”
And he was like, “ Honey what should I ask when I have you.”
“Aww, so sweet, but still I wish to give some.” I said with my cute yet wicked smile, he understood the coffee is working on this lady and awakening the devil inside.
“Sure, as you say.” He said in helpless voice.
I removed a stamp paper having few of things written on it. He was numb,  his face was portraying his true feelings, “ the decision to marry her was a correct thing I did?”
“So what’s that Mrs.Spine?”
He asked me with fear in his tone.
“Nothing a list of 40 things I’ll be giving you in dowry and the essential one’s I know.”
He held my hand took me in the car, we locked the door and further he asked,
“Could I know the reason for this mood swing, I can handle Monica Geller, then why this Rachel Green?”
I with a smile, placed my hand on his face, “ I think we should clear few things, before together spending a life rest. So I’ll be reading the content and then you’ll sign, I think my words are clear hope you are fine.”
He grabbed the papers and signed before reading, I stared him with frowned eyes, he replied, “do I have a better option otherwise?”
I am marrying a really intelligent man, but I didn’t show that on my face, I pretended he is idiot, in every case.
So I began my words, like “ ill not be having my cupboard next to the window, and I’ll be using the washroom before you go.”
It was just the first clause and he said, could we read the important once for a while, honey I had already signed the papers and this is reducing our kissing time.
I understood he was least interested in my words still his proposal was romantic and acceptable so I looked at my list and shortlisted 30 of my things  he added, 
“ honey you are so kind and loving.”
Yeah, he meant nothing.
Anyway.
So here we go…
“ So in dowry, I am giving you my clingy behavior, supported by my possessiveness and obsessiveness. You are rewarded by my anger and a lot of selfishness. In dowry ill give you my dogs kind of loyalty, that no matter what conditions would come, I’ll just spoil your life, I’ll be not seeing others, in every birth ill be just your wife. In dowry I give you my care and love and making our relationship as my life’s priority even when we mess up.”
He listened it carefully with a toddlers smile, but the smile vanished when I said even I need a dowry from your side.
“Why, why, why, I’ll be giving dowry, I object it every time even when it would be from you or mine side.”
It’s difficult to handle someone, who thinks he is Ross but in relationship he freaks out like Chandler. Still I just stared him and it was enough to warn him that, “shut up.”
So I continue, “ In dowry I need a pillow of your hand till the last day of my life, you would love me like your first kid and also as your wife.
You would tell me my faults and scold me on my mistake, I want our relationship to be crystal clear and not a win or lose game.
I know you are my loyal monkey, I know you love me a lot, but you have to allow me to spin the neck of those ladies who would try to be your sweetheart.
You have to protect me like my knight, and remove the eyes of the guys who see me with those bad eyes, don’t you dare to let me ask, I am your wife and demanding protection is my right.
I ask you to respect and love your family, like you did before, I just want to be part of your life and our family would be our ultimate goal.
We'll handle our people with our bond of love, enough to break all the hurdles
He hugged me tight and first time my Chandler was happy with his complicated would be wife.
Love should be the dowry asked for and should be given in return, material, money will vanish by time , but love will stay in every life's run.
So I'll love him and warn him to love me back, that's his dowry all his life, that's the richness he had.

Wednesday, November 6, 2019

I'll be her ease.

I am a good guy, toddler by my heart and for specification I am her sweetheart.
It’s been a long time she is writing about our love story, so I should give it a try she prepared biryani, I’ll try allu fry.
So before starting, ladies please don’t fall for me by my words, she just acts sweet and poise but truly speaking her anger is worst.
She informed about how we met, how our love reach it's faith, but let me tell you why others won't get us, why we have fallen in each other's nest and why we are each others best.
She is a short-tempered girl, with anger on her nose tip and she has a great talent to even fight over a topic of toothpick.
I am her punching bag, no matter who the hell had did the mistake ill get the shout, and I can’t dare to ask her, why she is angry, even when I have a doubt.
Though she has a great talent to fight with me yet she is my ABC, my airway, breathing and circulation she acts like a magic wand in my tension.
Though she loves to pull my hair and kill my ears by her chit chat yet she loves me and calls me “my baby fat.” Seriously fat!
Though she has a list of infinite demands, yet she full fill all my wishes before I want.
She completes me and makes me better, she don’t complains about my flaws, she accepted me even when I was raw.
Our love story is different from others, we wont met each other when love was in weather, we didn’t loved each other but loved our talks, we loved to have a street walk.
We loved to stand near the bridge and discus about what was the level of water in last rain, yes we were discussing the weather forecast even in our loves romantic game.
We both are insane, with illogical mind, if she says we should go right, I’ll say the left is fine.
But there is something in her which binds me, even in my darkness she finds me. She fought like Jhansi ki rani for our love, she handles our love whenever I give up.
It’s easy to leave when things are one-sided, but difficult to fight, whenever I leave and say goodbye, she replied, “ baby I love you, I’ll wait and give our love a try.”
I could never find someone who is so addictive to me, someone who loves me more than my soul whose absence in my life creates a big hole.
So I vow her to be her idiot, her punching bag, we will get married and have our kids, who as she says makes me sick.
I vow to be her cure in her disease, in her difficulties ill be her ease.

Wednesday, October 30, 2019

He leads me.

I am the mother of two kids, and wife of one, yeah the words sound crazy but I wrote it for fun.
That’s not my story in all, I am a doctor by profession, poet by my heart, and further detail, I was the college star.
I was a simple girl, with a big pimple with specks adding the cherry on top, but these things won’t define me innocent, I was the devil in all.
I was enjoying my life’s rollercoaster ride, accidentally met a stupid, idiot guy, stupid since he fall for me though I just gave it a try. 
His stupidity became contagious, I ran out of my pace, this bird loved his cage, he gave me my freedom I gave him his space.
Then that crucial time came when marriage feathers were flying in air, he took one gave it to me, “ please be my wife, dear.”
I said yes, families got convinced, the story of acceptance was big which I made it short, buddy I like to write but not a lot.
So in short, our marriage date was decided, everybody was excited and I took a break for a month, to plan my life because till now I was just my fathers Princess but further ill be mine idiots wife.
Things gonna be change, my life has to be arranged, the customs, traditions should be accepted it’s always easy to force others to understand us then to just stand for others.
I learned how to cook, how to feed the family, I always knew how to earn but I learned how to win the family.
I was pampered stubborn girl, but learned to be disciplined, selfless woman, it was never been asked by my in-laws, but taught by my mother since it’s easy to be shouting bird then to be humble.
The wedding day came, my face was covered with ghunghat, Few of the people objected, “ in this generation such a old school?”, but me, hardly caring about others word, i felt innocent first time in my life, it was my moment, and enjoying it was my right.
Then I was been asked to touch his feet and while touching I gave him a big hit, he reacted with a big smile, he knew though I am acting polite, there is a devil inside.
We started our seven rounds around the fire with those promises, but I added mine ,in my mind from my side.
- I’ll be the strength of my Mr. Spine
- I’ll take care of his family and his friends.
- When his friends fails to be with him while playing PUBG, I’ll join though I even don’t know what’s the definition, I’ll be their.
- I’ll massage his head when he feel sick and give him such a kid who’ll make him sick.
Many more such promises we’re added by me, but don’t think I am that good, even I added few promises from his side which I told him at our first night. 
I cleared before I am devil inside..
- He will kiss my forehead every night and day till our last breath, and he will full fill my every dream like it’s his life's wish.
- He have to cry when I’ll be leaving for my parents house, even for a day ,
- He will tell me how much he loves me, though he would be lying in the beautiful way.
Jokes apart, I made a promise which was essential, he will be my ego and I’ll be his manhood, he will handle me with respect and I’ll handle him with royalty. I promised, everyday we will fight for each other even when we are fighting with each other, everyday we will write our love story with different rainbow color.
On our first night when I told him about my special vows, he laughed out loud, “ oh I got my Monica Geller some how.”
No, no, no I though my idiot is a stud, but he is Chandler
I thought he knows everything about love , but he is just a beginner.
Anyway our love story took it pace, we were been gifted with twins kids, I took a leave from my job, not because it was asked .
Since now I was been promoted in my life’s stage, first I was daughter, then doctor, then wife and daughter in law, but now I am mother.
The one who creates a future, so I am enjoying my job with my two little toddlers, and spending money of my husband in the parlor.
On serious note, it’s sometime the woman’s wish to be what she want, when to earn money and when to run family, it’s her empire it’s her right, though the man is king still he is protected by his wife, play the game of chess if you think otherwise. sometimes fulfilling the dreams of others makes us happy, and living a life of homemaker is flashy.
So he leads me in my life, not because he wished to, but because being his shadow was my dream, and he protected me from every obstacles like Arthur the king.!!





Sunday, October 27, 2019

Birthday..

It’s his birthday, what's to buy?
I declared to give wallet a try.
He is the one for my life, I wished to give him a love surprise.
I analyzed every shop of  city, found nothing, felt pitty.
Didn't matched anything like his old, one who's body is black and borders are gold.
So accepting  the scenario and my mood swing, I decided to write him a letter enveloped with a metal ring.
I drape my feelings with pen on paper in birthday cum love letter.
“ Hey birthday boy.”
And I tore the page.
“Hey Mr. Spine.” yeah that suits better.
“Hey Mr. Spine it’s a day world got one of the milestones to conquer, to compete.
I know you hate to have a gift yet I wish to give one, so this letter is my gift which will stay with you in dark nights and bright sun.
It will stay with you, when I’ll be set in stone, it will stay with you when you'll be all alone.
It will stay with you when you'll be a hungry wolf, it will stay with you when you'll lose your cool.
It will stay with you when smile defines your life, it will stay with you when your tears are question to my life,
It will stay with you when you'll be on cloud nine, it will stay with you when you'll be doubtful of life.
I aspire you to shine like Sirius, fly like Phoenix, and dwell like kid,
You are just the perfect thing God ever did.
You are my first rain, my first snow, my first dance, my first glow.
You are the calmness to my Hitler mind, you my last train, my last love ride.
You are the reason I deny to hit the bucket,
And for this Rapunzel you are her fairy cottage.
I know you are my King Arthur, will pull out the Excalibur of opulence from the hardship stone,
So I crave to confess before the time gone.
You are my perfect piece of advice, my sunset, my sunrise.
Never desire to bind you with a quick fix,
though carve to be thy side in times of risk.
So, with this letter of love I gift you a metal ring of trust, the one represents me, a blackish aura in your bright gleam.
I am not a diamond ring, I am Talisman preventing bad things.
Allow me to shield you whole my life, save my blue star from bad site.
So with this letter, a metal ring and our favourite tea, I confess all I have for you,
     
                                           Yours,
                                          Fangirl,
                              One who loves you...💙

Thursday, October 24, 2019

Loves fight.

"How much do you love him?" a question asked.
"Enough to sit in front of his family and talk about our relationship," I said it fast.
We both know each other for a year now and decided to give this relationship name somehow.
So we planned a day when we have less risk of beatings and asked our parents lets go out for eating.
We took our parents out, respectively informed them about our love story, with a suggestion, hey people we are in public so please don't shout.
My parents asked me tons of questions, how we met with the correct location what happened between us, followed by a big lecture session, the scenario was no different at his place, what I was facing the same conditions he had faced.
By begging and requesting with teary eyes, our parents approved our plea and gave us time.
So our relatives were been called, our love story was informed,
We both were ready to face questionable eyes, we both were ready to face this crucial fight.
Considering Wednesday lucky, the meeting was organized, I asked him, we both will have a green dress code and welcome our new life, he added
"I have fallen in love with insane, even at this time you want to play a dress code game?"
Anyway, he did what I asked him, yes he was the man of my dreams.
So, I was sitting in front of his family and he has been encountered by mine, I was been asked, "how are you" with head down I said,
"I am fine."
Then a chain of questions was been asked, what I do, where do I live, what I think about family and kids and do I believe in ritual fasts?
I never thought loving him would bring me to such a big test and partially I was cursing the day we met.
Jokes apart, I gave answers with full confidence and didn't let them know about my inner volcano eruption.
Even he faced few of such questions he hated alot, when these questions I use to ask.
After an hour our interview was over, both the families sat in one big hall and to both of our surprise the priests were been called, we both were asked to sit outside, by the time our future they will decide.
These priests calculated our moons and stars and they will let them know how this relationship will work and will go how far.
We both were sitting outside, and first time silence took its place in our love life.
We trusted our love and the God above, but we were tired of the war so we just pleaded, pleaded and pleaded.
I know the lines weren't in rhythm, but so was our life out of track, out of pace and searching for it's faith.
We both were feared with what would happen next, will we have to be strangers again?
After an hour we both were called, we held each others hand with a big question, " how far?"
We sat in front of our families with those questionable eyes, we were waiting for the result, it was our love whose destiny was decided by others.
So I was asked what's my favorite flower? seriously at this time of hour?
Still, politely I said, "lavender"
"Ohh, that looks good at the mandap."
The word 'mandap' changed our world, we cried like a small toddler.
I hugged him tight having no fear, yess, yess, yesss he is mine and the verdict was clear.
Families aren't bad, just situations are, we have to fight and win this love war.
Life may show difficulties a lot, we just have to be highly positive even in the darkest cloud.

I am tenacious and you are my one.

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